How are you doing friend? Really? How are you? Can I be honest for a minute…I haven’t been so good this week. I’ve been feeling overwhelmed with my own thoughts. And most of it is again…my job here. I’ve become use to homeschooling (not loving it but it is what it is) having my family home 24/7 which isn’t that bad 95% of the time, and even the non-shopping trips ( I do miss that though). To be honest I really actually love having my family around and it’s been a time I know we will only have for a short bit. I’m trying to cherish that! My husband has only been working in the office once a week so to have him home has been wonderful. I mean don’t get me wrong, we’ve had our arguments…but we do enjoy each other’s company. This makes me extra grateful that I married my best friend. But…the fact that now is the perfect time to be an online influencer has put this added pressure on me.
You might be thinking how silly…but it’s the truth. The thing I love the most is ultimately what I hate too. I love blogging, decorating, sharing inspiration, doing videos, taking photos, etc. but…the pressure can be tough sometimes. I feel like I need to keep up with every other social media account. Try this, try that…trying to come up with something “viral” but then trying to just be true to me! I think a lot of influencers stepped up in today’s crisis because we are that glimmer of light, we can use our knowledge and homes to add value to someone else’s, but when all the people and even non-influencers are doing it…you get lost in a sea of what now…and start doubting and then eventually giving up. That’s where I am right now in my mind. I am torn in my business…when I should be pumped up and ready to deliver. I’ve been spinning ideas in my head, living life on the couch, walking around in circles, and avoiding more then just laundry in my boredom.
So, today I woke up and I felt I couldn’t do this to myself anymore. I needed to give myself grace and do what I love to do. Without the pressure of now or never…try this try that…maybe do what she’s doing..oh crap she’s got a Youtube channel now too…I read some word in my First 5 app this morning that reminded me I wasn’t doing the one thing I needed to do. Not put my wandering thoughts first, my impuslive decisions, me first…but God! God first and all will fall into place. I prayed this morning that he would remind me of my purpose and that I needed to see his face and put HIM first again. After that prayer and those words…which Lord knew I needed to read. He knew my pounding heart and overthinking mind…just needed him to calm me, and let his kingdom be first. It’s like a child depending on their father again for reassurance and to take care of it all. To not worry about my decisions but trust God that he’s got this.
I hope this gives you peace in whatever area you are feeling maybe some anxiety of overthinking. Maybe it’s your decision to pick a new career now after losing your job. Or…you’ve made some “worldly” choices in your days home. I know I have too…food, some questionable television…even losing time watching TikTok videos…that doesn’t feel like me or what God wants me to do with my time right now. So God, take the reigns…giving it to you…set your eyes on the Lord and the rest will fall into place.
If you need a good song to just find praise and blessing this one called the blessing by elevation church has been playing on repeat in my home.
God Bless you!
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Wonderful!
May the Lord bless you for your honesty, Deb. It inspires me! Let’s keep trusting Jesus. He is the One who makes it all worth it!
You are blessed—such an inspiration in home projects and in your faith! You don’t realize that your honesty and candor touches home. I needed to read this and hear that song! I struggle too with things; homeschooling, value of what I bring each day to my family and others, my self worth. You are amazing, keep shining:)
AMEN! A inspiring and honest share—and WE have all been there in one way or another. Thank you so much for your encouraging share! I needed to read this today and re-center myself on letting God take over and not try to “go it alone”. Praying for you and your beautiful family.
Thank you…I needed that this morning…I’m dealing with alot more than the virus and feeling very lost…My mom passed away last September….we got a puppy six weeks after she passed and it’s feeling like it was a bad idea….but the worse thing is my 29yr old son was hit by a car while setting up for a bicycle race about 90 miles away from us…His injuries were many and serious but because of a lot of prayers from friends and family and God being so wonderful he is recovering amazingly…but all of this has hit me hard while being home all the time… reading your post helped..thank you
Thank you for this, sweetie. Amazing how we think we need to be everything to everyone. Keep doing what your heart tells you. Your sincerity makes you stand out. Blessings.
Yes!!! And Amen!!!
Thank you! Just what I needed to hear today!!
Thank you – I have many days like that but I don’t have any real pressures on me. Mine are only those I put on myself. I’m going outside now to celebrate Earth Day by planting flower seeds and mowing the grass. I often sing hymns to myself when in the yard. I don’t know this song you posted which I am listening to now. But I know the Blessing. I will pray it while outside. May He bless us both today.
COVID 19 and social distancing have impacted everyone. Even people with “essential” jobs are impacted. I’m retired so I’m not struggling with job loss but I have a leadership role at my church and we have had to make the decision to switch to Zoom meetings and Facebook Live for worship. Praise God that we had recently added a staff member who can navigate social media! Schools in SoCal are closed for the rest of the school year. Normally that wouldn’t be a big deal for this great-grandma, but my grandson, who has sole custody of his daughter, is an essential worker. I’ve gone from watching his daughter after school for an hour or two to having her for 8-10 hours a day, 5 days a week. She is really smart but she has a visual processing disorder and ADHD which makes traditional learning a challenge. Thanks to the shut-down, I’m learning how to be a special ed teacher. I’ve never wanted to be a teacher, let alone a special ed teacher! I pray for wisdom every day! I pray God will show me how to get her excited and enthusiastic about school work. I know that without Him I can’t do it! God has this and will get us through COVID 19 and the aftermath!
Thank you and may God bless you and your family! 🙂
Awe, what a great post. Big or small in our business we all go through these moods. It’s quite frustrating and I am there right now with you. Love what you had to say. Look to him, that is really just the best advice. Quarantine is challenging that’s for sure. Love what you’re showing and writing so don’t stop.
thank you from my very full heart…..
Oh Deb, you are such a blessing. Please do put you eyes on Him. I for one love your beautiful home and Style. Being in CA we have had a quarantine for 2 mo.
You would think I could gotten my 71 yr. old hubby to help me hang a curtain rod and finally tackle our bathroom. NOT. We have had days of being under the weather but no testing where we are. We are rural and this is great but, It is just no services to be checked out. Prayerfully we are ok and I pray this for you,your family,and your BLOG family. Yippee.
Hi , I’m new to your site and enjoying it! Thank you for sharing your testimony of what God is doing in your life. He’s sure working in me through this time as well and teaching me daily to trust Him, depend on Him and be faithful to obey Him. Scripture is so powerful and alive!
He reminded me of the verse in II Chronicles 20:15 that the battles of life are not ours but God’s and he will fight for us if we follow. God bless you in your walk! I’ll add you to my prayer list as I pray each morning. Have a wonderful day!
Thank You.
Lovely way of thinking. With putting God above all else – you are so very right, it will all come together as He has intended. Don’t beat yourself up.
We’re all in this together. Stay home, stay safe, stay healthy….and stay praying! ♥